High Expectations

Sometimes I just feel really tired. Does anyone else ever feel that way? Sometimes I just feel so stressed out about every little thing, no matter how minor the issue seems to be. Especially this year, during my senior year of high school. Every year seems to add more and more stress to life itself.

Last year when I started working at a legitimate job (where I had to pay taxes), it seemed more stressful than ever. As a C.N.A. people automatically assume that you're going to do everything correctly the first time and every time. They also believe that everyone gets the best treatment they can get and that our job is easy. We do our best everyday we are there. They don't seem to realize that we have several different residents, with several different needs, and people who think they need more help than they do. We are always constantly running around helping someone and when we finally have five minutes of silence when everything is done and nobody is ringing their bell to ask for something, we rest briefly. Then everyone gets mad and calls us lazy. Nobody even tries to understand how hard we work as C.N.A.'s  to provide the best care as promptly and efficiently as possible. Still nobody seems to be happy with the care they get, and it's frustrating.

 It's just like being a high school student in a lot of ways, and I'm tired of having to either live by everyone else's high standards. If we don't get good grades everyone get's their panties in a bunch. They expect us to learn multiple subjects at a time, do homework, sports, after school activities, volunteer, work, do chores, have a social life, sleep eight hours a day, and keep ourselves healthy and sane. To me that totally impossible.

Either way I don't care what other people think I should do, I will just try my best and succeed in my own ways.

My Job is good though and I really enjoy the residents I get to spend time with and their families. It gets hard sometimes but I know in the end it's really all worth it. I also don't hate school, it's just difficult and sometimes I just get sick of doing the difficult work with no easy breaks. If teachers would just alternate between weeks of their classes being difficult I would be fine, but I know that's not how life works.


I will continue to fight through every hardship because I know in the end it will all work out for the best.